Trust

Children are a gift from the LORD; they are a reward from him. Psalm 127:3

I love my kids.  The process from which they came into this life, carrying them in my belly for 9 months, Kj for 8 :)  (I guess he was just excited to get here)  

The late nights and worries, the first words and steps and falls and teeth and hurts.  

Spending your last dollar, going the extra mile, pushing through when you are ridiculously tired and want nothing more than to lay your head on your pillow.  

Cleaning booboos, calming fears, and wiping away tears from a bad dream.

Last night, I took one to a sleepover, one to a football game, and one on a date with mama.  Trusting that the parents are okay, the home is safe...trusting that my teenager had the ability to make good decisions and not follow the crowd.  

While running all of these directions, my heart was oh so heavy.  I don't like letting go.  I just want to be a mother hen, and gather all my chicks, keeping them just under my wings where I am sure that they are safe.

But if they are under my wings, they aren't able to spread theirs.  Their wings will become useless, and when the day comes that they need to step out they won't know how.  Lord, help me to let go.  I just want to protect, and nurture, and cuddle them.  Every news channel strikes fear into a mother's heart, and makes me wanna pull them close.  

But God has great plans for these little ones, and He trusted me just enough to be their mom.  He gave me a little time with them, to share with them all I know about Him and about life.  And for that I am so thankful.  

So I will try a little harder, and trust a little more.  Because as much as I love them, He loves them all the more.  

"Family is a field to grow in, where children grow up and parents grow patient." 

:) christa