Trust

Children are a gift from the LORD; they are a reward from him. Psalm 127:3

I love my kids.  The process from which they came into this life, carrying them in my belly for 9 months, Kj for 8 :)  (I guess he was just excited to get here)  

The late nights and worries, the first words and steps and falls and teeth and hurts.  

Spending your last dollar, going the extra mile, pushing through when you are ridiculously tired and want nothing more than to lay your head on your pillow.  

Cleaning booboos, calming fears, and wiping away tears from a bad dream.

Last night, I took one to a sleepover, one to a football game, and one on a date with mama.  Trusting that the parents are okay, the home is safe...trusting that my teenager had the ability to make good decisions and not follow the crowd.  

While running all of these directions, my heart was oh so heavy.  I don't like letting go.  I just want to be a mother hen, and gather all my chicks, keeping them just under my wings where I am sure that they are safe.

But if they are under my wings, they aren't able to spread theirs.  Their wings will become useless, and when the day comes that they need to step out they won't know how.  Lord, help me to let go.  I just want to protect, and nurture, and cuddle them.  Every news channel strikes fear into a mother's heart, and makes me wanna pull them close.  

But God has great plans for these little ones, and He trusted me just enough to be their mom.  He gave me a little time with them, to share with them all I know about Him and about life.  And for that I am so thankful.  

So I will try a little harder, and trust a little more.  Because as much as I love them, He loves them all the more.  

"Family is a field to grow in, where children grow up and parents grow patient." 

:) christa

Be you, bravely

He takes me as I am…just as I am…And He takes you just as you are! You are enough.

There are things I have always wanted to do.  But I put them off...I will do them later, when my kids get bigger, when I get out of this mess, when I feel better about myself, when i am older…on and on and on.

He doesn’t want me to wait until I’m ” there”.  Until I’ve arrived!  He's given us all potential. HIS potential. Ahhh... this truth should make us begin today right?

I have begun to share my life more freely. It’s nothing like the movies mind you. BUT I am starting to open up my heart.  I am doing one little thing toward one thing that I’ve always wanted to do.  And you know what? It feels pretty darn good.  And do you know what else? I’ve stopped listening so much to the LIES. This is a choice!  Choosing what we believe is quite powerful.

What about you? 
Is there just one thing you can do starting today to take one step toward making it become a reality tomorrow?  Saying goodbye to fear and worry. 

It feels so good. So free. Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus :)

<3 christa

Me

Me.

32 years on this earth.

Heart broken...scarred but mended by a tender
and compassionate Healer

Taught how to love by a precious man who was lost too...
but now we're found and shining our light
for all to see

Mother of three world changers who are free
free from our dysfunctional patterns...
because they ENDED with me

Daughter of a mighty woman...
made of the strongest material
broken yet beautiful <3

And of a man who gave in to temptation
but let me know I was the apple of his eye
I know now that he loved me the best he knew how

But MOST OF ALL...
Daughter of the most HIGH God
faithful and true Papa
promise keeper and head lifter

Learning to trust that His ways are higher
and His path is sure

Letting go of perfection and accepting
my story - within His story
my adventure <3


christa <3