Don't wanna miss a thing

I have come to the realization that I have not yet arrived.  As a matter of fact, I am no where near where I want to be.  I am growing every day, and I am not where I used to be.  But I still have much to do.

I am on a lifelong mission to learn how to love.  Really love, not just in word, not just in deed.  But deeply love, the way Jesus has loved me, and the way He loves us.  Love like that.  I wanna know what that looks like.

I am learning to love my family, my husband and my children.  And as wonderful as that is, as fun as it is for me to leave them little notes, pack their lunches with sweet treats, seek out moments to make them smile and laugh, and creative ways to let them know they're loved, that is good, but it is not enough.  

If I love those who love me back, what have I done?  What reward is there?   Yes it is sweet, and a great blessing, but I believe there is more of a love requirement from Christians.

To love those who cannot, or will not, love me back, some at first, some not ever.  That is something I want to learn.  The ones that spit in my face, talk behind my back, and do not understand what love is.  I want to love those people.  I want to be able to give and get nothing back.

Aren't these the ones who really need love the most? May everything we do be out of love, love for Jesus and love for people.


If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. ² If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. ³ If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;^[a] but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing. 1 Cor. 13:1-3

<3 christa

I don't like "Church".

There.  I said it.  I don't like "Church."

I don't like the system.  I don't like the traditional, religious rituals.  I don't like the people that only come because they are looking for something to please theirselves with. The pasted smiles, the generic talk.  The relationships that are only so deep, only deep enough to scratch the surface.  Until they find the next best thing, or until they find a fault or two, then they move on.

Hear my heart - I know that Christ died for the "Church", the people.  I'm talking about the man-made system that is the "Church".  The rules, the ways... our ways that can honestly be so far from His heart.

Without Him, without His heart, it's all pointless.  It means nothing.  Without being in love with JESUS, why even turn up there?  Why even come?  Why minister, why go to meetings?

Oh, but WITH Him.  With Him it all makes sense.  With Him there is no mountain too high, nothing I would not do.

Let us not do anything unless we are in love with Him.  May we be obedient to what He has said - to love one another with a fervent love.

Because lets be honest, it's dead works if it's not done in the right heart.

<3 Christa