for what You've done for me;
how You loosed my shackles and You set me free,
how You made a way out of no way,
turned my darkness into day.
You've been my joy in the time of sorrow,
hope for my tomorrow,
peace in the time of the storm,
strength when I'm weak and worn.
(Eddie James, You've Been Faithful)
Had this song on my heart today, and felt led to write what the Lord has been doing in my heart and my life. About 2 months ago I began to feel the urgency to visit my friend Krista. She is currently serving as a missionary in Haiti, with a group from San Diego, California. This has been her dream, and great passion of her heart to go and serve the people of Haiti. I admired this quality in her, her willingness to follow her dream and not give up, despite facing adversity and difficulty. I have struggled with fear my whole life, being afraid of just about everything, from heights, to being alone, etc. I never dreamed I would be able to overcome my fears and do it too.
I told my husband that I felt like I was supposed to go. He said, "okay, then do it." Wow. I said, "you don't have any questions? You don't have any doubts?" "Why would I doubt what God is saying to you? " he said.
I am so blessed to have a husband that is a God chaser. So with that, he reminded me that when he went to Israel last year, I told him I felt like God was going to send me somewhere, and it wouldn't be with him. It would be alone, so that He could build something in me that I depended on Kevin for. Again, wow.
So we booked my ticket, and I bought my passport. I felt in my heart that we should take up an offering at our church, to allow them to give into this effort, and to take some gifts to Krista. So I put together a small slideshow PPT presentation, and spoke from my heart for about 5 minutes about the work she was doing there. Someone wrote a check to cover not only my trip, but the items for Krista and her flight to meet me in Port au Prince when I arrived. WOW. (I didn't even ask for money for my trip, only for Krista. He gives more than I can ask for!)
He really does do more than what we ask or imagine. The warfare I have experienced in this season of my life is unlike any other season. I have been hit personally, as well as in ministry, back to back to back, with not much time to catch my breath. But it doesn't matter! He is doing so much in my heart, that it makes any hit or attack worth the look in His eyes. He is so faithful when we are chasing Him. When our hands are clean, and our hearts are pure, He knows. He sees all.
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I leave in less than 3 weeks for Haiti! I will update my blog and facebook as I am there and after I return. I am believing for great things. Please keep me in your prayers, as I have never bee overseas at all, or traveled alone. But I won't be alone. He will be with me. :)
